Frustration

There is no one to blame except myself, but I am beyond frustrated right now! It's not the program's fault, but my own. 

I lost 1 pound this week. One. UGH! {Why yes, I did insert a picture of a glob of fat in my last post stating "still mad you only lost 1 pound" .... and yes, I am still mad! HA! I know... I shouldn't be!} C'mon though. 1 pound! In the "Biggest Loser" world, all the super over-weight people are losing HUGE numbers in the beginning. I am fully aware they spend 8+ hours a day working out like it's their new full-time job. And no, I'm not working out. Okay, so obviously that comparison SUCKS... but what I'm trying to say is... I. Have. Done. This. Before. I know how this is "suppose to work." I wanted to lose 20 lbs in 4 weeks. It's not going to happen. I feel like I'm failing and I want to pretend like "I just don't get it..."

I'm just frustrated. I know what I'm doing wrong. I know what I need to change and work on. I wish I wouldn't screw up and just DO IT. Like, UGH... I'm managing to screw up something SOO simple. Just eat it. Really, that's it.

Wake up: Eat

Pour up: Eat

Sit down: Eat

Stand up: Eat

Move around: Eat

Clean up: Eat

Faded.... {My hilariously poor attempt at a parody of 'Swimming Pools' by Kendrick Lamar.... yeah, just, never mind...}

Anyway. I'm not eating on time. I'm forgetting to eat. Mid-way through last week I saw I was measuring healthy fats incorrectly. I don't understand why my brain has turned into mush!! I never made these mistakes last time. {?!!!??!} I'm just really discouraged, but I know what you're thinking... 

"You {meaning me} know what mistakes you've made, so move forward, correct them, and be happy that you're still moving in the right direction." 

Yes, yes. That's all good and fine, but it doesn't change the fact that I'm wasting my own time. 

I need to get with it!!